114 pounds, finally. 

I've been stuck on 115 pounds for such a long time, that seeing 114 on the scale today, practically made me cry. I'm feeling great, great, great!

 I am invincible. 

I am light. 

And finally, I will get to 110. All my hard work ill finally pay off! 

it's such a greaaat day. 

OH AND, I was so overjoyed by the 114, I haven't had anything to eat. But I've burnt 700 calories on the treadmill!                             i've had -700 calories today.        have i mentioned how much i love today? 

I might not be back on until after new year, so i'd like to wish you all a very lovely new year! 

okayokayokayokayokay.

now that it's almost new years, here's a post about my resolutions.

some being : 

- i will eat no more than four hundred calories a day.

- i will only have my safe foods.

- i will keep my school work at an A average.

and that is it.

stupid hospital.

stupid fat filled diet.

stupid weekly weigh ins.

see? stupid. when something is stupid stupid stupid you can tamper with it. you can make it go your way. because you, my friend, are not stupid.

stupid hospital? i'm out. i'm free. 

stupid diet? I can change. re arrange. pretend.

stupid weigh ins? stuffed socks, bras, undies, drink gallons of water.

so instead of weighing 110, which you really do, you weigh 120.