i want a mannequin, but she won't let me in

HER MINDS MADE UP SHE DON'T WANNA GO STEADY. so I know I've been MIA lately but, I've had people observing my every fucking move. because of hospital, which was sadsadsad, but im free now. free as a birdplanetraineautomobile. I shall update almost daily and I'll get back on track. I'm still 5'10, obviously. But now I'm fatfatfat at 135 pounds, will get down to 110 before summer ends. mark my words.

being sent back to the hospital. wont be able to write for ages. or starve, this is so bad

oh wow. found this off google, but wow. 

you've come a long long way, baby. 

fuuuck recovery okay? fuck it. i'm baaack. can't look at all this fat anymore, its making me sick.
i pretty promise to post more now, this is it. i am going to be 0 kg. low as i can go, just like limbo, but it takes longer.

read stick figure. it's cute.

doblidablydae, alright and as i promised a wonderful (and, she is wonderful) friend off here i shall make a video, buuuuut only when i get to my goal weight because cmon. like i'd get on camera.

looove you all, sorry for abandoning you, will not happen again!

nanananananana

i don't need food. food isn't fuel, food just weighs you down. I'm good, so so so good. for the first time in a long time, lalalala. tomorrow i re-start my exercise routine! ah, that'll be such a pain,

well, for a moment at least, but then i'll realise how beautiful it is, how it helps me be thin. 

after all, the thinner is the winner. 

ahhh, happy days! 

ON ANOTHER NOTE, the diet is going terrific at the moment not even remotely hungry and ah. had two apples so far today, and i think i'll skip the one i'm supposed to have for dinner. 

hey guys, i've been better.
i've gained, had a break down because of this, was hospitalised and now i am back.

for the next three weeks, i will follow this diet:

1st day: fruit, no mangos or bananas or grapes. no drinks other than water.
2nd day: vegetables, no drinks.
3rd day: fruit & veg mix.
4th day:  one banana, four cups of milk.
5th day: one cup of rice and a tomato.
6th day: one cup of rice and veggies.
7th day: on cup of rice and veggies.

a friend of mine lost six pounds per week on this, hopefully i'll lose more.

Two weeks from today, it'll be my birthday, and I will be,

better, faster, thinner.

I know I don't upload much, and honest apologies for that, the weeks just been so hectic with exams and applications and oh lord does time go by fast. I mean, I can almost completely remember my first day of primary and now I'm here. I'm so nervous.

when you were young - killers,  not a song about eating disorders. but i like it lots and loads.

weeell, ski trip on the tenth, packingshoppingpackingshoppingbuyingfreakingoutpacking, 

I've got this fantastically amaaazing ipod app, it's a calorie counter, but the lovely part about it is that you put in your weight, your goal weight, and the date you want to be that weight and it calculates just how many calories you need to eat daily to be that by then! 

I've lost weight! which is super duper. 

I keep fainting, but ah well.

you win some, you lose some, eh? 

HOPE YOU'RE ALL HAVING THE MOST AMAZING TIME WHEREVER YOU ARE DOING WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING! 

I'm going on a ski trip next month! First time skiing since the age of fourteen. So exited.

I'll be rooming with a couple of friends, so I want to get down to a hundred before I go.

Is it strange that every time I lose weight, more and more males become interested?

pfft. men like curvy woman. then why?

anywho! still on a fast. but i'm tiredtiredtired. I might start having breakfast, barely completed exercising today.

Hey guys, added a chat room at the bottom of the blog so if you have anything to say to me, or anyone else who may stumble apon a chatroom on a pro ana blog, go ahead and speak. 

or you can visit the chatroom's site itself: 

http://goaheadandspeak.chatango.com

my weight isn't budging. I'm on a fast. It's stuck, It's not moving. I'm eating nothing and my weight isn't going down, any ideas of why? or what I could do to make it budge?


though I did have a digestive light cookie on new years day, but only that since the 27th.

Pass the cigarettes, take a drag, relax.

Went to see Coldplay yesterday! They were amaaazing. 

honestly had such a great time, the crowd was so into the song, the mood was grand. however it was cold outside, i seem to be cold all the time now, but it was actually cold this time. so, i practically froze.

had a light digestive yesterday (66) for the energy, I've been on a fast though, so I'm being an extra good girl. 

113 today.

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this song is sososososo triggering, don't even know why.

Happy new year!